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Thursday, 27 November 2008

More emo when I think of you, even more so when i wonder if you miss me too.

PRECiiOUSZ x0x (10:05:23 PM): true. you know what? so that this doesn't happen again, i'm deleting him from my friends list
BratBrat924 (10:05:32 PM): No, you don't have to
BratBrat924 (10:05:38 PM): I was just letting you know
BratBrat924 (10:05:42 PM): its okay
BratBrat924 (10:05:48 PM): im being stupid and over protective anyway
PRECiiOUSZ x0x (10:06:12 PM): well... idk i feel a little guilty heh heh
BratBrat924 (10:06:22 PM): No, its okay
BratBrat924 (10:06:35 PM): im just...
BratBrat924 (10:06:44 PM): still a little sensative towards him...
BratBrat924 (10:07:00 PM): I feel like an idiot because im mad at him and not talking to him but he hasn't tried contacting me either
PRECiiOUSZ x0x (10:07:21 PM): i understand that. another thing is he never did anything mean towards me so i thought it would've been okay. i guess i should've asked you first
BratBrat924 (10:07:37 PM): No, im sorry, you did what you wanted to do
PRECiiOUSZ x0x (10:07:55 PM): he did contact you though
PRECiiOUSZ x0x (10:08:00 PM): he told you happy thanksgiving
BratBrat924 (10:08:20 PM): I think its only cause you said happy thanksgiving to him...
BratBrat924 (10:08:35 PM): He hasn't tried to contact me all week
PRECiiOUSZ x0x (10:08:46 PM): oh
PRECiiOUSZ x0x (10:09:12 PM): well you know i wouldn't try to get with him so you have no need to be jealous
BratBrat924 (10:09:44 PM): Oh no!!! I wasn't saying that at all!!
BratBrat924 (10:10:02 PM): I just meant your comment made him think of saying that
BratBrat924 (10:10:10 PM): But...I wonder, does he even miss talking to me?
PRECiiOUSZ x0x (10:10:47 PM): i can't say for sure but possibly? even though he has a gf i'm sure he somewhat misses your conversations?
BratBrat924 (10:11:21 PM): thats what gets me so depressed
BratBrat924 (10:11:40 PM): DOES he miss me? Or is he so involved with his new gf he'll forget me
BratBrat924 (10:11:42 PM): ?
BratBrat924 (10:11:50 PM): I can't ask him though, it would be so clingy
PRECiiOUSZ x0x (10:12:29 PM): well in the beginning of a realtionship people tend to spend too much time with their significant other because it's new to them you know?
BratBrat924 (10:13:10 PM): He's my friend Tess...I shared everything with him...
BratBrat924 (10:13:35 PM): if I loose him it'll be SO
BratBrat924 (10:13:36 PM): hard
BratBrat924 (10:13:50 PM): im trying really hard to be angry and not talk to him, give him space
BratBrat924 (10:13:54 PM): but its so hard...
PRECiiOUSZ x0x (10:14:00 PM): i know. i think you need to tell him that though.
PRECiiOUSZ x0x (10:14:05 PM): so that he understands
PRECiiOUSZ x0x (10:14:25 PM): life's too short. staying angry at someone's not worth it
BratBrat924 (10:14:26 PM): what would he say? Im sorry your so emotional that it spurts out your ears?
PRECiiOUSZ x0x (10:15:05 PM): idk but if you don't tell him how you feel you'll regret it. i know.
BratBrat924 (10:17:17 PM): I don't want him to see how much of a wreck i am without him..
BratBrat924 (10:17:32 PM): not pride but because i don't wnat him to feel guilty because im too emotional
PRECiiOUSZ x0x (10:17:45 PM): oh..
BratBrat924 (10:18:15 PM): he deserves to be happy, you know?
PRECiiOUSZ x0x (10:18:21 PM): yeah..
PRECiiOUSZ x0x (10:18:24 PM): true
BratBrat924 (10:19:22 PM): I don't want the fact that i havn't matured emotionally keep him down
PRECiiOUSZ x0x (10:20:00 PM): i guess that's a fair enough reason...
BratBrat924 (10:22:16 PM): yeah...
So you can tell by the whole conversation whats going on...even if no one reads this. Im hurting...Im hurting so badly because of him because I might loose a really good friend...
I don't understand why this hurts so much...
Emo anime pictures...

Sunday, 02 November 2008

more poems splashed on the bathroom walls

Mood: Happy yet angry (Bow down infornt of the cuteness!!)
I don't understand why I get so angry about everything you do wrong, I just do.
I got the ENTIRE 2nd season of Yu Yu Hakusho on DVD for $35 BIATCHESSSS!! Im SOOO HAPPY! I've been watching it like a mad woman whilst cleaning my room...ew...cleaning...
Anywho, im FREZZING down here, my downstairs and just finished working on math.
When the HELL will i need to find the third side of triangle in Pyshc?! Maybe I will need to metephorically but not actually!!! It sucks!!! Why can't we just read?

Saturday, 25 October 2008

Mood: Sad and Depressed
I feel like such a child but I don't understand...
You SAY you feel the same but you havn't texted me in 4 days.
There are 24 hours in a day, am I not important enough for one?
Not even an hour im asking for, just one minute.
Texting me "hi" to know I at least crossed your mind.
I feel so alone.
I've never felt this way about ANY guy, I can even go as far to say I love you.
Maybe not the love adults feel but its my love.
You have my heart and I can't get it back, I can't give it out.
He's so nice, he's here, he's amazing.
But I can't be in love with him when you have all of my heart.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.
PEOPLE TELL ME WHAT TO DO ALL THE TIME.
I KNOW THEY'RE RIGHT BUT IT STILL PISSES ME OFF.
I LOVE YOU, WHY IS GOD MAKING THIS SO HARD?!
I-WANT-YOU more then anything...
Why can't you give me 1/24?

Wednesday, 22 October 2008

ITS BEEN SO LONG!!!

Hey guys!!! Oh my gosh its been so long since I've been on!! Its feels good to be back! I feel like this is one one place to vent! So, my dear ladies and gentlemen, amongst the scattered stories and COMPLETELY random stuff that will go here, I welcome you back to Blue_crystal_anime's Xanga site!!
To catch you up on my life, heres ICONS!!!! YAY!!
WARNING: Icons may contain Teen agnst. If you are alergic to, prone to anger by or simply just don't care about teen agnst, you may want to leave this weblog Post.
When am I NOT? XD This is just me hanging out with my friends, going to cons and running the fields after football games, making "Thats what she said" jokes. Yes, we're the most immature Juniors and Seniors you'll know, but we have a HELL of a good time.
Self explanitory...
I find myself being...Different everyday. Its a suprise to see what i'll be feeling or thinkign or feeling each day, it guess its the hormones.
My love for Walmart has not faded!!!
STILL A loud and proud Axel Fan girl all!!

Heartbreak, what else is new?
(Cats: They all look like this in Japan) XDDD love!!!
God I wish it was easy...
God...Disney movie Icons...
Im reading the story below that I wrote and I REALLY like it!! Im still very shojo and I REALLY like the way i typed so you can expect more if you like it XD
Thats it for now, not all thinsg change because my mom is pissed off at me! Thansk for joining me!

Thursday, 13 December 2007

Scene 6: A possible love triangle?

Casey, once she was completely out of sight from Cu leaned against a wall and let out a big, dreamy sigh. Why wouldn’t her heart stop?! She must’ve been bright red when she had walked away! Thank God it was cold outside. She stopped and stared up at the Boston lights, closing her eyes and smiling.
She couldn’t even keep her thoughts straight!! But two defiantly stuck out…She hadn’t done a good job of hiding the fact she was scared, AND she admitted it to her enemy. If there was one useful thing Costello taught her, it was to never show weakness. But reviewing the situation in her mind, Cu really did force her to tell, those deep mysterious eyes wouldn’t let her stay quiet. Something told her Costello wouldn’t take that as a good answer.
Her face suddenly fell at the thought of how much she loved him…
Than she looked up, her eyes widened as she looked flustered,
Loved him?! Whoa! Wait, those were pretty strong emotions! She wasn’t capable enough of handling them! Was she?
She felt a hand on her bare shoulder which made her jump and shoot around, two arms wrapped around her and grabbed her into the shadows, “Casey! Are you okay?! You look like you were flustered! Did that bastard do anything to you?!”
She was relived to find it was Ghosts’ familiar voice. “You’re freezing! Jesus…come here.” Ghost said in a protective tone and hugged her close him, his warmth taking care of ANY problems of coldness she had before. She blushed and hugged onto his arms, usually this wouldn’t even be an issue, if he hugged her like this! They always looked out for each other, like brother and sister. Why was her mind doing this to her now?!
Ghost closed his eyes, this was heaven…Her scent, he had come to savor it over the years. He loved her…there was no doubt, but she didn’t feel the same, he knew it. But as much as he wanted her, Costello wouldn’t allow it either and the guys…holy crap they would NEVER leave Casey alone about it. And they couldn’t right out quit, no one escaped the mob and lived a normal life. His eyes opened slowly and mournfully and he put his lips right next to her ear and blew, knowing her reaction, but the moment was too tense.
Casey jumped fight feet in his arms and felt her heart spaz. She heard Ghost laughing hysterically at her than she turned to glare playfully as she smacked his head with her hand.
(Alright, I have to cut it short there! be back for more!)